In sports, numbers can be deceiving.
They can flatten the truth — altering our perception of reality into binary narratives of “good” and “bad.” They can leave out the nuance, the subtlety, that makes an athlete great or contributes to his demise. They can tell us convenient lies.
But sometimes numbers can reveal the entirety of a complicated truth. Like, for example, in the case of Bud Cauley, where one stat tells the whole truth and nothing but it.
The stat in question? Two-hundred and thirty-nine. Otherwise known as the number of starts between Cauley’s first PGA Tour event and his first win on the big tour, which arrived on Sunday evening at the RBC Canadian Open.
On one hand, for a golfer capable of making no more than 30 starts in a year, 239 starts without a win is an impressive stretch of futility. Even in a sport played on very thin margins with many capable competitors, random chance suggests that you’d reach at least one victory in 239 starts.
On the other, recording 239 starts on the PGA Tour is not just impressive but outright remarkable. Victory or not, it requires a great golfer to make 239 PGA Tour starts on the balance of a career. To return to the arena that many times suggests not just competency but longevity. It suggests a strength of will. It suggests toughness.
Cauley showed us each of these things on Sunday afternoon at the RBC Canadian Open, where his maiden PGA Tour victory finally arrived. From the time he stepped on the 10th tee box to the time he tapped in for a tournament-clinching par, every ounce of Cauley’s longevity and strength of will and toughness were tested by the field at TPC Toronto, who chased rabidly down the back nine of a gray Sunday afternoon.
Cauley’s defining moment arrived on the 12th hole, when he chipped in for a second-straight birdie from the far greenside rough. Cauley lifted his club, half-surprised and half-impressed, as it fell into the hole — his facial expression reflecting the kind of a even-keel needed to stick around for a long time on the PGA Tour. His birdies on three of his next four holes to run away and hide reflected the kind of mental toughness that comes from many close misses. And his gutsy par on the last — needing only a bogey to win the golf tournament — reflected the strength of will that comes after realizing the greatest opponent exists within.
But those were just the visible scenes on Sunday. Not the moments over the last fifteen years as Cauley’s game blossomed from a decorated junior player into a winless PGA Tour veteran. Not the emotions that came after each of the near-misses, the 29 top-10s, when victory was so close and yet so obviously far. And certainly not the pain that came after a one-car accident outside of Muirfield Village eight years ago, when doctors inserted a metal plate in his chest and cast serious doubt upon his ability to play golf again professionally.
If you wanted to know the weight of all those things, you needed to wait until after the play ended on Sunday evening, when Cauley, his wife and his two kids shared a tearful celebration on the 18th green. Cauley hadn’t let the emotion get to him all week at TPC Toronto, gently rebuffing questions from reporters wondering about the emotions that might join his first victory.
“I don’t really want to think about that now,” he’d said.
He finally did think about it as his par putt fell into the hole, securing a victory and so much more than that —and with no more golf left to play, the tears fell.
“[I’m thinking about] just how hard that was,” Cauley said. “Just so many people helped me get here and I’m just really thankful for all the help that I’ve gotten.”
It was revealing that Cauley’s first emotion in victory was not joy but gratitude. Revealing of Cauley’s makeup and of his journey.
“Once I got the opportunity to start playing again I just told myself that I was going to try to just do everything the right way and give myself the best chance,” he said. “I put my wife through so much during those dark times and it’s just nice to have a little success as kind of a thank you.”
That thanks was visible to everyone on the 18th Sunday at the RBC Canadian Open, where Bud Cauley ended start 239 with a new statistic.
PGA Tour victories: One.
